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out all the time

I haven't written for a long time and the time hasn't been going smoothly. I'm still suffering and for no reason I'm really really tired...

Well no surprise since I haven't stayed at home to just surf the internet for like a long long long long time. It started last week that I've been going out for the whole day and not returning home untill late at night. I went to KLCC on Friday and then Midvalley on Saturday, and thinking about midvalley definitely makes me smile (those that knows the truth you will know why).


Then on Sunday I went to Loshana's and Shanthi's house where I laughed my ass off with my long-time-no-hang-out friends.

Monday was as usual only I stayed back a little later before going home. Then on Tuesday, class ended at 12pm but I stayed back to film that stupid video with the irritating people. And of course on Wednesday I couldn't go home because I need to stay and help out with the editing of the video.

And finally today, class got canceled and I didn't go home instead I went to Jun xiong's house to admire his desktop. Don't bother thinking that I will stay at home tomorrow because I'll be going out for a fine dining session and then head to KLCC where the others are gathering for some window shopping...

*sign I'm tired but I'm making myself more tired rather then resting...

What I am going to do??

My parents just purchased a new phone that is of no brand. Its made in China and a touch screen that costs only RM400. Ya, I know cheap, but what about the radiation that phone emmits??

I just can't believe it! my parents just bought the phone without even talking to me! I'm the one that knows the latest technology and that which is more reliable! But no! they didn't even talk to me or just plain tell me until they brought the damn thing home!!!!

Everyday they tell me not to sit too near the tv because it isn't healthy or don't face the TV or the notebook (BAby Kimmy) so much or put the notebook outside the room or switch off the main switch when you're not watchding the tv. And now they themselves bought a phone that emmits high radiation!!

There is one thing that I learned while growing up is to practice what you preach. I've always been angry whenever they don't do as they taught me too and now this situation just pisses me off. I don't even care about my vow to never ever say a curse word now I just want to shout it out!!!

They want to get cancer fine, I'm still young I don't want to die so soon!!!!

complicated

When did my family became so complicated? All my life I grew up alone I have no one to play with when I was a toddler and I have no one to talk to when I was a secondary school student. I can be considered luckier then an average person but the luck is only limited to that, it meant that I can never be a winner in any lucky draw games.

I have an almost average family, the only different is that my siblings are more then 20 years older then me and I have a bonus mother which I have never met. But I never thought that my almost average family is the real problem for me. As I say I grew up alone, so when there is a family affair I have to deal with it myself and alone, I can't expect help from anybody at all. Can anyone imagine what it is like to be stuck between arguing parents all alone and almost going crazy?

weakling

I am so weak!! I can't watch horror movies because I would get nightmares at night. I can't watch scenes that includes cutting human flesh because in my imagination I can actually feel the pain. I can even look at things that are ugly because it creeps me out, I just saw a picture of a breast with holes in it because the parasite in the bra attack it and now I'm actually feeling like my skin is all crawly and creepy because of it. I don't even know if that is real, I didn't even look properly at it and I've deleted it, even that few seconds of it that image is stuck in my brain and making me feel like crying.

I'm always the weak person in the group, in group discussions I can't contribute much because I haven't got any interesting points to help with the assignments and I'm always the only one that fails in the group. I can't watch horror movies and I can't do assignments well, then what exactly am I good at?!?!

Why am I always the weak one? Can't I be the strong and smart one??

Question

If anybody knows how to post up videos and songs on my blog please tell me how to do!!!!

I wish

I think I am the worst person in the world. I don't know how to do my work but I refuse to ask advice from others. When it comes to passing up assignments I would always pass up a few days late. Uni life is worst then foundation. I love foundation year but now I'm seriously thinking if I really am suitable to study Mass Comm, I have officially lost interest. But there isn't another subject that I think I can study, so I'm going to have to stick with it even though I can't take it anymore.

I don't really think I have lost interest in the course I think I've just lost interest in the subjects. Just because I fail 2 subjects I've totally gave up. I think I'm going to fail 3 subjects now since I didn't do the exercise properly.