weakling

I am so weak!! I can't watch horror movies because I would get nightmares at night. I can't watch scenes that includes cutting human flesh because in my imagination I can actually feel the pain. I can even look at things that are ugly because it creeps me out, I just saw a picture of a breast with holes in it because the parasite in the bra attack it and now I'm actually feeling like my skin is all crawly and creepy because of it. I don't even know if that is real, I didn't even look properly at it and I've deleted it, even that few seconds of it that image is stuck in my brain and making me feel like crying.

I'm always the weak person in the group, in group discussions I can't contribute much because I haven't got any interesting points to help with the assignments and I'm always the only one that fails in the group. I can't watch horror movies and I can't do assignments well, then what exactly am I good at?!?!

Why am I always the weak one? Can't I be the strong and smart one??

I wish

I think I am the worst person in the world. I don't know how to do my work but I refuse to ask advice from others. When it comes to passing up assignments I would always pass up a few days late. Uni life is worst then foundation. I love foundation year but now I'm seriously thinking if I really am suitable to study Mass Comm, I have officially lost interest. But there isn't another subject that I think I can study, so I'm going to have to stick with it even though I can't take it anymore.

I don't really think I have lost interest in the course I think I've just lost interest in the subjects. Just because I fail 2 subjects I've totally gave up. I think I'm going to fail 3 subjects now since I didn't do the exercise properly.