complicated

When did my family became so complicated? All my life I grew up alone I have no one to play with when I was a toddler and I have no one to talk to when I was a secondary school student. I can be considered luckier then an average person but the luck is only limited to that, it meant that I can never be a winner in any lucky draw games.

I have an almost average family, the only different is that my siblings are more then 20 years older then me and I have a bonus mother which I have never met. But I never thought that my almost average family is the real problem for me. As I say I grew up alone, so when there is a family affair I have to deal with it myself and alone, I can't expect help from anybody at all. Can anyone imagine what it is like to be stuck between arguing parents all alone and almost going crazy?