My Mum has recently threaten me that if I do not get my friends to pronounce my name properly then she will force me to change my name.
Jerrica, the name is not recorded in any dictionary unlike Michelle or whatever. Even now using the Firefox it is telling me that it is a wrong spelling.
People had started off calling me JAriKA back when I was young, and my mum had tirelessly corrected them over and over again until they finally pronounce it correctly. In Secondary school my friends don't call me by that name but everyone loves teasing me and calling me JAriCARRR. My Mum of course had glared at those teasers everytime they called me that. And then there are the people who just called me Jerika. Which sounded weird because of the missing R. In college my friends has been calling me JerriKA which is almost similar to back when I was 6 years old.
The right pronunciation of my name is JER-RI-CA. The ending is a "ke" not a "ka". So I really hope that I could get my friends to pronounce it correctly or else my Mum is going to force me to change my name.
Or should I just take a leaf out of Piaget's book to change my name every now and then??
Thursday, 30 October 2008
Day 4
I haven't talk to my father for 4 days. He didn't even respond when I gave him his lousy birthday present yesterday. That's rm30 I wasted then. He isn't going to like it. Obviously.
He started talking to my mum yesterday, but he isn't talking to me. So I'm going to guess he doesn't want me as his daughter anymore. I wonder where I can go if he really throws me out of the house.
Now I really wish I don't exist. I don't know what is my purpose in life before this, and now that my father doesn't wants me anymore then I think I should really leave. I envy my brother and sister, at least my father still wants them. How I wish I could drop dead just like that. I wonder would it hurt dieing? or would it be fast and clean?
He started talking to my mum yesterday, but he isn't talking to me. So I'm going to guess he doesn't want me as his daughter anymore. I wonder where I can go if he really throws me out of the house.
Now I really wish I don't exist. I don't know what is my purpose in life before this, and now that my father doesn't wants me anymore then I think I should really leave. I envy my brother and sister, at least my father still wants them. How I wish I could drop dead just like that. I wonder would it hurt dieing? or would it be fast and clean?
Monday, 27 October 2008
What Happen
Yesterday at about 7 something, the electricity went out, the whole Sri Petaling hasn't got any electricity for less then 1 hour.
My Dad came in, ate dinner and just went out to the living room. I eat dinner very slowly and I'm always the last to finish. Another silent dinner. He is totally ignore us and didn't even pay hid to any of us. When the electricity went out he just went outside, my mum asked if the rest of the houses had any electricity he just ignored us.
A few minutes later, he came in and took the keys and left without saying anything to us or where he was going. We went upstairs to hang around in the aircond room where there is at least a little cold air left. He came back then started yelling about the torchlight.
Just because my mum didn't charge the torchlight the last time we used it and he started scolding her. I felt so guilty for taking the last torchlight in the house and because he couldn't find that he yelled at my mum.
I know that it is my fault for offending him, but what about my mum? She didn't do anything to let him yell at her. The cold war now is just getting on my nerves. He isn't talking to me or my mum. What part do we play in him losing money? I don't get why it is us that has to suffer when he was the one to blame.
My sister is lucky she doesn't has to endure this cold war when she was young. But it is times like this that I really wish that I have a close sibling to talk to and to share this feeling with. I don't really care if that brother or sister is younger then me or not. Just as long there is someone then I'm happy.
But who will listen to me? Who can help me?
I hate my life now. I don't feel like living anymore. Being liveless is tempting now.
My Dad came in, ate dinner and just went out to the living room. I eat dinner very slowly and I'm always the last to finish. Another silent dinner. He is totally ignore us and didn't even pay hid to any of us. When the electricity went out he just went outside, my mum asked if the rest of the houses had any electricity he just ignored us.
A few minutes later, he came in and took the keys and left without saying anything to us or where he was going. We went upstairs to hang around in the aircond room where there is at least a little cold air left. He came back then started yelling about the torchlight.
Just because my mum didn't charge the torchlight the last time we used it and he started scolding her. I felt so guilty for taking the last torchlight in the house and because he couldn't find that he yelled at my mum.
I know that it is my fault for offending him, but what about my mum? She didn't do anything to let him yell at her. The cold war now is just getting on my nerves. He isn't talking to me or my mum. What part do we play in him losing money? I don't get why it is us that has to suffer when he was the one to blame.
My sister is lucky she doesn't has to endure this cold war when she was young. But it is times like this that I really wish that I have a close sibling to talk to and to share this feeling with. I don't really care if that brother or sister is younger then me or not. Just as long there is someone then I'm happy.
But who will listen to me? Who can help me?
I hate my life now. I don't feel like living anymore. Being liveless is tempting now.
Sunday, 26 October 2008
Family Problem again
My Dad came home yesterday, he didn't say much not even to ask if my dog has eaten or not. He just came in and went upstairs to take his bath. I was in the computer room that time. I even greeted him and didn't get a response.
Well, I went downstairs at first then went upstairs again to get my water bottle to fill. I haven't came down and he was already downstairs and shouting about who left the TV on and the first thing that he said was me leaving the TV on when I'm upstairs. I heard what he said and told him to not blame me and hence the arguments started.
He said he only "asked" me why I left the TV on, oh yeah right like I don't know the difference of being asked and being blamed. He also said when did I learned to behave like I was being fitnah about something, why can't I just talk properly and also that he just "asked" me and I was making so much noise. Excuse me, I only said "don't blame everything on me" that is make a lot of noise... The last time I check that was just one sentence and 5 words 7 syllables. He was the one making all the noise!
Then he turned on the fan which didn't respond because my mum turned off at the controls and not at the switch and he started to shout about why she turned it off there. Then when we finally sat down for dinner my mum pushed the soup bowl to the center of the table and he said "no, push it further away" What? now we are ganging up on him?
Just because he lost money in his horse racing doesn't mean he can take it out on us. We didn't tell him to gamble so big did we? We weren't the ones that wanted to be greedy did we? And I never said I wanted a new car, he was the one that wanted to buy a new car first!
Well, I went downstairs at first then went upstairs again to get my water bottle to fill. I haven't came down and he was already downstairs and shouting about who left the TV on and the first thing that he said was me leaving the TV on when I'm upstairs. I heard what he said and told him to not blame me and hence the arguments started.
He said he only "asked" me why I left the TV on, oh yeah right like I don't know the difference of being asked and being blamed. He also said when did I learned to behave like I was being fitnah about something, why can't I just talk properly and also that he just "asked" me and I was making so much noise. Excuse me, I only said "don't blame everything on me" that is make a lot of noise... The last time I check that was just one sentence and 5 words 7 syllables. He was the one making all the noise!
Then he turned on the fan which didn't respond because my mum turned off at the controls and not at the switch and he started to shout about why she turned it off there. Then when we finally sat down for dinner my mum pushed the soup bowl to the center of the table and he said "no, push it further away" What? now we are ganging up on him?
Just because he lost money in his horse racing doesn't mean he can take it out on us. We didn't tell him to gamble so big did we? We weren't the ones that wanted to be greedy did we? And I never said I wanted a new car, he was the one that wanted to buy a new car first!
Astro - hate and love at the same time
I am a Formula 1 fan, so I love to watch the races and where else can you watch the race other then on Astro?
I love Astro, I get to watch the sports live on Star Sports and also enjoy brilliant commentary by Steve Slater and the guest commentator. I also like watching the show before the race called Race Day where we get to learn more about the sport. Well, other then Formula 1 I also watch the FIA World Touring Car Championship, that race is only showed on Eurosport and not on normal TV. The A1 Grand Prix is also a no show on normal TV, I can only watch the race on ESPN.
I also love to watch Cartoons on Disney Channel, Nickelodeon and also Cartoon Network. Totally Spies is my favourite Cartoon, and I like the teen Flicks on Nickelodeon. I used to watch Teen Titans, Shou lin Showdown and quite a number of cartoons on Cartoon Network.
I hate Astro because whenever it rains I won't get to watch the shows. And how could I watch the race if it rains. And when the repeat airs it is on a time that is impossible to catch, I'm either in school or tuition, just like I missed the race in Brazil last year where Kimi Raikkonen won the World Championship. The most exciting race and I missed it. 1 year later and I'm still fuming over how I missed that race.
And in March, my Cartoon Network channel broke down, I complained to my parents and they called Astro. They want us to pay RM50 just for a simple inspection. That is too outrageous!! What if it wasn't my Satellite or decoder problem and just their cable wire's problem? That payment is just a waste isn't it?? I called all my friends and sister and they said that their Cartoon Network channel was still working perfectly, so why is it mine wouldn't work? And AStro just wants me to pay when we don't really know what the problem is?? That is just UNFAIR!!! UNFAIR I tell you, JUST UNFAIR!!!
But at the same time, how are we going to live without Astro? No Astro means no live coverage on Sports and also no live concerts to watch during Chinese New Year. So that's why I say, I hate and love Astro at the same time.
I love Astro, I get to watch the sports live on Star Sports and also enjoy brilliant commentary by Steve Slater and the guest commentator. I also like watching the show before the race called Race Day where we get to learn more about the sport. Well, other then Formula 1 I also watch the FIA World Touring Car Championship, that race is only showed on Eurosport and not on normal TV. The A1 Grand Prix is also a no show on normal TV, I can only watch the race on ESPN.
I also love to watch Cartoons on Disney Channel, Nickelodeon and also Cartoon Network. Totally Spies is my favourite Cartoon, and I like the teen Flicks on Nickelodeon. I used to watch Teen Titans, Shou lin Showdown and quite a number of cartoons on Cartoon Network.
I hate Astro because whenever it rains I won't get to watch the shows. And how could I watch the race if it rains. And when the repeat airs it is on a time that is impossible to catch, I'm either in school or tuition, just like I missed the race in Brazil last year where Kimi Raikkonen won the World Championship. The most exciting race and I missed it. 1 year later and I'm still fuming over how I missed that race.
And in March, my Cartoon Network channel broke down, I complained to my parents and they called Astro. They want us to pay RM50 just for a simple inspection. That is too outrageous!! What if it wasn't my Satellite or decoder problem and just their cable wire's problem? That payment is just a waste isn't it?? I called all my friends and sister and they said that their Cartoon Network channel was still working perfectly, so why is it mine wouldn't work? And AStro just wants me to pay when we don't really know what the problem is?? That is just UNFAIR!!! UNFAIR I tell you, JUST UNFAIR!!!
But at the same time, how are we going to live without Astro? No Astro means no live coverage on Sports and also no live concerts to watch during Chinese New Year. So that's why I say, I hate and love Astro at the same time.
Monday, 20 October 2008
Joke of the day
A pair of students were sitting in class comparing exam results. They have agreed that whoever has the most highest marks would win the bet of $5. Student A currently has more high marks then Student B.
Student A triumphantly cheered: "You're going down!!!" to Student B.
Student B sat back in his chair and said: "I don't need to go down because my results are already down..."
Student A triumphantly cheered: "You're going down!!!" to Student B.
Student B sat back in his chair and said: "I don't need to go down because my results are already down..."
Wednesday, 15 October 2008
Music
The Rules
Put your itunes. Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
For each Question, press the next button to get your answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
Put this on your blog.
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
(What is that suppose to mean?)
2. How would you describe yourself?
Rockstar - Hannah Montana
(YEAH! This is more like it!!)
3. What do you like in a boy/girl?
Better in Time - Leona Lewis
(like they would change for the better in time?)
4. How do you feel today?
Take a Bow - Rhiana
(Yeah, I do feel like a drama queen right now
5. What is your life's purpose?
抢玫瑰 (Fighting for a Rose) - Rynn Lin and JJ Lin
(You have got to be joking...)
6. What is your motto?
We've got the Party Started - Hannah Montana
(Yap yap, I love that Motto!)
7. What do your friends think of you?
Always Online - JJ Lin
(I guess that is right since I am always online)
8. What do you think of your parents?
刊物女 (Girl that stays at home) - Rynn Lin
(... more like what they think of me...)
9. What do you think about very often?
Move Shake Drop - DJ Laz ft Flo
(Coincident much??)
10. What is 2 + 2?
Leave it All to Me - Miranda Cosgrove
(that is sooo not what I will say when it comes to maths...)
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Time of My Life - David Cook
(Well, talking to them is different from talking to anybody else...)
12. What do you think about the person you like?
青花瓷 (Green Porcelain Vase) - Jay Chow
(?? a vase? That's weird...)
13. What is your life?
Follow Me Now - Alvin and the Chipmunks
(hmm... I have always wanted to be a trendsetter...)
14. What do you want to be when you grown up?
Way Back Into Love - Victor Wong and Fish Leong
(True that I have lost faith in love...)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
(but- but- I'm scare of needles!!!)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
情爱得，那不是爱 (That's not love, my dear) - Angela Zhang
(I don't think that is an appropriate song to play on my wedding day...)
17. What would they play at your funeral?
小太阳 (Little Sun) - Mayday
(I would like that, I did nickname myself Sunshine...)
18. What is your hobby/interest?
This is Real, This is Me - Demi Lovato ft Joe Jonas
(Well, I haven't exactly found myself yet... in other words I'm PEraSan)
19. What is your biggest fear?
Big Yellow Taxi - Counting Crows ft Vanessa Carlton
(So that's why I just refuse to take the taxi!!!)
20. What is your biggest secret?
Gemuruh - Faizal Tahir
(My biggest secret is thunder??)
21. What will you post this as?
Here in My Home - Malaysian Artists of Unity
(... no comment...)
22. What song will you play during your first time having sex?
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
(so sad a???)
Put your itunes. Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
For each Question, press the next button to get your answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
Put this on your blog.
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
(What is that suppose to mean?)
2. How would you describe yourself?
Rockstar - Hannah Montana
(YEAH! This is more like it!!)
3. What do you like in a boy/girl?
Better in Time - Leona Lewis
(like they would change for the better in time?)
4. How do you feel today?
Take a Bow - Rhiana
(Yeah, I do feel like a drama queen right now
5. What is your life's purpose?
抢玫瑰 (Fighting for a Rose) - Rynn Lin and JJ Lin
(You have got to be joking...)
6. What is your motto?
We've got the Party Started - Hannah Montana
(Yap yap, I love that Motto!)
7. What do your friends think of you?
Always Online - JJ Lin
(I guess that is right since I am always online)
8. What do you think of your parents?
刊物女 (Girl that stays at home) - Rynn Lin
(... more like what they think of me...)
9. What do you think about very often?
Move Shake Drop - DJ Laz ft Flo
(Coincident much??)
10. What is 2 + 2?
Leave it All to Me - Miranda Cosgrove
(that is sooo not what I will say when it comes to maths...)
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Time of My Life - David Cook
(Well, talking to them is different from talking to anybody else...)
12. What do you think about the person you like?
青花瓷 (Green Porcelain Vase) - Jay Chow
(?? a vase? That's weird...)
13. What is your life?
Follow Me Now - Alvin and the Chipmunks
(hmm... I have always wanted to be a trendsetter...)
14. What do you want to be when you grown up?
Way Back Into Love - Victor Wong and Fish Leong
(True that I have lost faith in love...)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
(but- but- I'm scare of needles!!!)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
情爱得，那不是爱 (That's not love, my dear) - Angela Zhang
(I don't think that is an appropriate song to play on my wedding day...)
17. What would they play at your funeral?
小太阳 (Little Sun) - Mayday
(I would like that, I did nickname myself Sunshine...)
18. What is your hobby/interest?
This is Real, This is Me - Demi Lovato ft Joe Jonas
(Well, I haven't exactly found myself yet... in other words I'm PEraSan)
19. What is your biggest fear?
Big Yellow Taxi - Counting Crows ft Vanessa Carlton
(So that's why I just refuse to take the taxi!!!)
20. What is your biggest secret?
Gemuruh - Faizal Tahir
(My biggest secret is thunder??)
21. What will you post this as?
Here in My Home - Malaysian Artists of Unity
(... no comment...)
22. What song will you play during your first time having sex?
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
(so sad a???)
Thursday, 2 October 2008
Let us Welcome!
Before I start this blog entry, I would like to have a one minute silence to honour the death of Paul Newman. A racer and a good actor, who died of cancer on Saturday night.
Last week's Singapore GP ended with the most unexpected winner, Fernando Alonso? how did the guy win the race? Well ok, so I was watching the race but it was still unexpected! Rosberg, the guy that was quoted on a Facebook page to be "dissapointing" ended up in 2nd place, and he is just lucky that his old friend, the Arrogant Hamilton, did not overtake him after the 2nd restart of the race. I think he should thank Kimi Raikkonen for crashing out and being unable to overtake Timo Glock to put pressure on Mr.Arrogant.
Poor Raikkonen, that is the 4th time he did not score any points at all. What's with him and unreliable cars? He left Mclaren because of unreliable cars, and you've got to admit that his car is always breaking down, to go to Ferrari to face the same problem. That is what cost Michael Schumacher his last Championship in 2006 because of the engine failure in Suzuka.
Well, I'm glad he has finally given up on his World Championship dreams and focus on helping the team and Massa. So now I can watch him race without shaking my head from time to time.
Anyway, I want to welcome a new electronic member of the family. I have decided to name my new notebook "Black Pearl" since it is balck and my favourite ship in Pirates of the Caribean is the Black Pearl. An Asus F80L. bought it without the OS so that I can install an XP inside it. DO you know that the Vista is just a waste of Processor space? Well at least that what I will call it from now on.
Last week's Singapore GP ended with the most unexpected winner, Fernando Alonso? how did the guy win the race? Well ok, so I was watching the race but it was still unexpected! Rosberg, the guy that was quoted on a Facebook page to be "dissapointing" ended up in 2nd place, and he is just lucky that his old friend, the Arrogant Hamilton, did not overtake him after the 2nd restart of the race. I think he should thank Kimi Raikkonen for crashing out and being unable to overtake Timo Glock to put pressure on Mr.Arrogant.
Poor Raikkonen, that is the 4th time he did not score any points at all. What's with him and unreliable cars? He left Mclaren because of unreliable cars, and you've got to admit that his car is always breaking down, to go to Ferrari to face the same problem. That is what cost Michael Schumacher his last Championship in 2006 because of the engine failure in Suzuka.
Well, I'm glad he has finally given up on his World Championship dreams and focus on helping the team and Massa. So now I can watch him race without shaking my head from time to time.
Anyway, I want to welcome a new electronic member of the family. I have decided to name my new notebook "Black Pearl" since it is balck and my favourite ship in Pirates of the Caribean is the Black Pearl. An Asus F80L. bought it without the OS so that I can install an XP inside it. DO you know that the Vista is just a waste of Processor space? Well at least that what I will call it from now on.
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