I haven't talk to my father for 4 days. He didn't even respond when I gave him his lousy birthday present yesterday. That's rm30 I wasted then. He isn't going to like it. Obviously.
He started talking to my mum yesterday, but he isn't talking to me. So I'm going to guess he doesn't want me as his daughter anymore. I wonder where I can go if he really throws me out of the house.
Now I really wish I don't exist. I don't know what is my purpose in life before this, and now that my father doesn't wants me anymore then I think I should really leave. I envy my brother and sister, at least my father still wants them. How I wish I could drop dead just like that. I wonder would it hurt dieing? or would it be fast and clean?