It was my first day in Singapore and my relatives invited us to their house for dinner. I finish the porridge without any complain because it was delicious!! My mum actually got second helpings, I think I would have if I hadn't felt so sick.
Anyway, I have a cousin brother that is actually 4 years older than me. He has got a pair of younger sisters who were twins. We both attended a photography workshop in July so he knows that I share a passion with him. I was sitting beside the window enjoying the cool air that blew in to the stuffy crowded room when he came over. He had dumped his numerous bags of equipment there. He started playing with his large camera and I watched him as he fiddled with the thing. When he had finished playing with it he surprised me by handing it wordlessly to me. I was very surprised, I took it without saying "thank you" and started playing with it, it was extremely heavy.
I gave up later when I just couldn't get it right and handed it back to him. I knew he was watching me, half worried about his camera and half fascinated at how I handle it. We never really talk that's why I was so surprised when he handed it to me. Later in the night he started taking more pictures and for the second time that night handed the camera to me wordlessly. I was surprised at this again, I complained that it was heavy and he took it back but later handed it to me again after he had removed the weights.
Wow, I beginning to feel that he really takes me as a real sister then are far and rarely talk to cousin. I liked that, I have never really been able to feel what brotherly love is so I appreciate and I am grateful that he treats me like that, but there was a problem that I feel annoyed with myself. I have always been searching for ways to feel what it is like having close siblings now that I have one that actually shares a little blood line with me I just can't bring myself to take him as my brother...
I asked me mum about it of course and I asked that is it because my cousin is not the type of person that I usually hang around with. Or is it because I have imagined my brother to be closer to me rather than just not talking to each other. I really don't know. My mum also noted that strange connection between us when we were at the wedding dinner on the 27th. He taught me how to use the camera even my own camera. Again I just feel the connection but also the disconnection I have been feeling. I know that among all the cousins I was most excited to see him but the feeling is just off...
Sunday, 28 December 2008
Thursday, 18 December 2008
Exam symptoms!!
ok I was sitting in class reading the text book when it suddenly hit me again like a ram running right into you with full force. I panicked like on Sunday and I certainly got on my mum's nerve that day.
I couldn't breath!! I was practically hyperventilating in my seat!! I skipped lunch and tried to study but I ended up chatting with Nora instead of studying. When I was having dinner with my family I let out my breath and it came out with a sign.
That's confirm!! My exam symptoms are surfacing!!
I couldn't breath!! I was practically hyperventilating in my seat!! I skipped lunch and tried to study but I ended up chatting with Nora instead of studying. When I was having dinner with my family I let out my breath and it came out with a sign.
That's confirm!! My exam symptoms are surfacing!!
Tuesday, 16 December 2008
Day Dreaming
Ok, I know that yesterday when I got back home I should have worked on my movie review but I didn't. I was daydreaming about stories and living in my own fantasy world to pass the few hours before dinner.
I went out to my sister's house just a few streets away from mine to have dinner with the aunt and uncle that was visiting from China. My sister from China didn't come along so I wasn't looking forward to seeing them. My monster of a nephew sat beside me during dinner and I can tell you that I did not enjoy it. Sure I had a kick out of teaching him how to use the chopstick, but speaking as a person suffering from OCD it isn't the most enjoyable experience seeing him spit out whatever that isn't nice to eat onto the table.
After dinner I sat outside on the sofa playing with my phone, Dad sat beside me and the little monster wouldn't stop bugging me. For those who know that I hate people playing with my hair and that I always want my hair to be clean and shiny well imagine how it felt like to have a nasty sweating monster place his sweat on it!! Of course there wasn't any peace in the house yesterday night because I wouldn't stop shouting for him to leave me alone or get off of me (he kept jumping on me).
I was extremely glad that when mum said to go home. But we brought the aunt and uncle to pasar malam first. There I found out that pasar malam may be cheaper than anywhere else it is no competition to China. The pants on sale were 3 for RM10, in China it was 3 for RMB10... So it is obvious that everything in M'sia is more expensive than China...
I went out to my sister's house just a few streets away from mine to have dinner with the aunt and uncle that was visiting from China. My sister from China didn't come along so I wasn't looking forward to seeing them. My monster of a nephew sat beside me during dinner and I can tell you that I did not enjoy it. Sure I had a kick out of teaching him how to use the chopstick, but speaking as a person suffering from OCD it isn't the most enjoyable experience seeing him spit out whatever that isn't nice to eat onto the table.
After dinner I sat outside on the sofa playing with my phone, Dad sat beside me and the little monster wouldn't stop bugging me. For those who know that I hate people playing with my hair and that I always want my hair to be clean and shiny well imagine how it felt like to have a nasty sweating monster place his sweat on it!! Of course there wasn't any peace in the house yesterday night because I wouldn't stop shouting for him to leave me alone or get off of me (he kept jumping on me).
I was extremely glad that when mum said to go home. But we brought the aunt and uncle to pasar malam first. There I found out that pasar malam may be cheaper than anywhere else it is no competition to China. The pants on sale were 3 for RM10, in China it was 3 for RMB10... So it is obvious that everything in M'sia is more expensive than China...
Sunday, 14 December 2008
Jealousy and Envy
So I went to Ipoh a week ago, I know my twin is still marvelling over how my dad took 2 hours and a little bit more to drive up and down. Yap thats all my dad took to fly. Surprisingly I sat and watch the road instead of reading a book like I always to when we drive up to Penang.
Dad went off to his precious horse racing which is only next door to the hotel we were living in and Mum, my aunt and uncle went off to visit relatives. We went to visit my cousin who had inherited his father's gold smith shop at a run down boring shopping complex. After lunch we went to visit another cousin of mine at his house. There I met my nephews and niece, Jared, Justine and Julian. Here is where envy started to surface.
Dad went off to his precious horse racing which is only next door to the hotel we were living in and Mum, my aunt and uncle went off to visit relatives. We went to visit my cousin who had inherited his father's gold smith shop at a run down boring shopping complex. After lunch we went to visit another cousin of mine at his house. There I met my nephews and niece, Jared, Justine and Julian. Here is where envy started to surface.
I have always marveled at how those with brothers and sisters that are actually close to their age interact with each other. I never ever get to experience that even though I have a sister and a brother of my own. They are just so much older then I am to even bother playing with me or sharing a certain something with me. They don't give a damn for cars and I am seriously mad about cars.
Well Jared Justine and Julian are so close with each other. I sat on the sofa pretending to listen to my cousin talk about his motivation camps and watch as they played a computer game. The eldest one Jared, who is the same age as I am, was playing, the other two were betting that he wouldn't get past to the next level. I don't even get to do that to either of my siblings...
What was worst was during the dinner. They sat across from me, well Justine and Julian did. I chat with them as if I knew them for a long time. Like old friends meeting each other again. Julian kept throwing random questions at me, questions such as "who's your favourite singer?" and all that.
What really got him interested was when he asked me if I have a million dollars what will I do with the money. I answered the first thing that came to my head which is to donate all of it. He didn't believe what I said, even I don't really believe if I would really do it. He told me that if he has 1 million dollars he would buy a Skyline, he would take out the back seats and replace them with loud speakers, he said he wants to deafen himself when he drove that car. I commented that the backseats are just weight adding neccesity, he agreed to it and also said it would be expensive. He was surprised that I knew so much about cars, I told him that I was a car freak and he high fived me. He also commented that I was his type of girl because you don't easily bump into the girl whose mind is full of cars...
What really got him interested was when he asked me if I have a million dollars what will I do with the money. I answered the first thing that came to my head which is to donate all of it. He didn't believe what I said, even I don't really believe if I would really do it. He told me that if he has 1 million dollars he would buy a Skyline, he would take out the back seats and replace them with loud speakers, he said he wants to deafen himself when he drove that car. I commented that the backseats are just weight adding neccesity, he agreed to it and also said it would be expensive. He was surprised that I knew so much about cars, I told him that I was a car freak and he high fived me. He also commented that I was his type of girl because you don't easily bump into the girl whose mind is full of cars...
Friday, 12 December 2008
My review
Man!! I have finally started on my movie review on Gladiator, and I'm lucky I did because I found out that I did the wrong opening for my review. I think I have come up with a suitable intro but I haven't write it down. Well I did but it was on a paper napkin from Carl's Jr when Ruby, Nora and I went to celebrate Ruby's birthday a few days ago.
I don't know what to do with it. We are suppose to write only 1 and a half page but my synopsis is already one page long and I've already left out alot of facts... How am I going to fit in all my opinions about the movie. sign* why can't it be a movie like Wild Child or Twilight?? Why does it have to be Gladiator. If I hadn't choose Gladiator it would be Sweeney Todd and V for Vendetta, FYI I don't watch horror movies and V for Vendetta is just too action packed to my liking. Another choice is Titanic. Why would I want to further depress myself by watching soap operas when I'm already depressed enough about homework? And another 1 is a movie that I have never ever heard of, I don't even know the name so how am I to seek out that movie.
Again I went book hunting at MPH, but as I've suspected there isn't stock of the book I want and the other is still in hard-cover form that I can't afford. When we went to Porpular bookstore I wandered off with a horribly sick stomach to the magazine section. I wasn't planning on buying the December issue of F1 Racing magazine and I wasn't dissapointed. Almost every page you can see Lewis Hamilton's ugly face printed across and everyone's, down to the ex-world champs, praise for the "Youngest Ever" driver and the "First ever Black" to have won the world Championship. What are the others?? Rotten fish? I don't see how big a complishment it is since I do live in a country that is multi-racial. I'll bet Mr. Arrogant is liking all the fame. then again he has always enjoyed it or else why would he have a Pussycat for a girlfriend??
I watched the movie Wild Child. I wanted to watch Bolt but it was too xpsv. Only the 3D version was available nothing else. It was interesting. I can only say that the guy playing Freddie's voice is so different that I couldn't recognise it.
Penning off now. I hope that Ruby could send me the proposal format, I have completely no idea how to start it or how to write it for that matter. I was staring at Baby K. yesterday at a blank MS Word screen...
I don't know what to do with it. We are suppose to write only 1 and a half page but my synopsis is already one page long and I've already left out alot of facts... How am I going to fit in all my opinions about the movie. sign* why can't it be a movie like Wild Child or Twilight?? Why does it have to be Gladiator. If I hadn't choose Gladiator it would be Sweeney Todd and V for Vendetta, FYI I don't watch horror movies and V for Vendetta is just too action packed to my liking. Another choice is Titanic. Why would I want to further depress myself by watching soap operas when I'm already depressed enough about homework? And another 1 is a movie that I have never ever heard of, I don't even know the name so how am I to seek out that movie.
Again I went book hunting at MPH, but as I've suspected there isn't stock of the book I want and the other is still in hard-cover form that I can't afford. When we went to Porpular bookstore I wandered off with a horribly sick stomach to the magazine section. I wasn't planning on buying the December issue of F1 Racing magazine and I wasn't dissapointed. Almost every page you can see Lewis Hamilton's ugly face printed across and everyone's, down to the ex-world champs, praise for the "Youngest Ever" driver and the "First ever Black" to have won the world Championship. What are the others?? Rotten fish? I don't see how big a complishment it is since I do live in a country that is multi-racial. I'll bet Mr. Arrogant is liking all the fame. then again he has always enjoyed it or else why would he have a Pussycat for a girlfriend??
I watched the movie Wild Child. I wanted to watch Bolt but it was too xpsv. Only the 3D version was available nothing else. It was interesting. I can only say that the guy playing Freddie's voice is so different that I couldn't recognise it.
Penning off now. I hope that Ruby could send me the proposal format, I have completely no idea how to start it or how to write it for that matter. I was staring at Baby K. yesterday at a blank MS Word screen...
Friday, 5 December 2008
I need help
I want to start doing my book and movie review but I can't start because I don't know how to do it, I so need help right now. Plus I have to start studying because there is only 2 weeks more until mid terms...
Shoot~ the semester just started and I'm already stressing over my assignments and exams?? Gosh this is going to be stressful!! And what's worst is that my Birthday will be in the midst of all this!!!
HELP!!
Shoot~ the semester just started and I'm already stressing over my assignments and exams?? Gosh this is going to be stressful!! And what's worst is that my Birthday will be in the midst of all this!!!
HELP!!
Thursday, 4 December 2008
Joke of the day
I was in my room, lying on the bed reading a book when my mum suddenly came in. She asked me if my cousin sister in China was online, I blinked at her then glanced at my notebook, Baby Kimmy and then back at her. She was still watching me expectantly.
So I said, "Do I look like I know??"
She turn to look at Baby Kimmy which sat on my writing table folded and cold.
"Oh..."
So I said, "Do I look like I know??"
She turn to look at Baby Kimmy which sat on my writing table folded and cold.
"Oh..."
Jerri's book review
I've bought and read the book New Moon, the second book to Twilight, it is about how Edward Cullen left Bella thinking that it would be safer for her if he stays away from her. Bella falls into depression and seeks help from her new friend Jacob Black who turns out to be a werewolf.
Well I think this book makes sense, I mean it is true that the depression really will kill you when someone that you really truely love suddenly leaves you and it kills you to want to know how and what he or she was doing. I should know what it feels like since I didn't quite recover from it untill 2 years later...
I don't care what the critics say about how Stephanie Meyer portrayed Bella as helpless and weak since she couldn't seem to live without Edward. But I think they should really ask themselves how they had felt when they had to suffer from what Bella is going though.
In my opinion this book really tells how going through a breakup is like, at least it is giving teens an idea what it would be like and prepare them to feel what it is like. Unlike me, I had to go through with the whole experience all alone, no one could help me at all. Bella is considered lucky that she has so many people there to help her through.
PS, I can't really write down the whole plot just in case someone comes across this and hadn't read the book. You know who I mean...
Well I think this book makes sense, I mean it is true that the depression really will kill you when someone that you really truely love suddenly leaves you and it kills you to want to know how and what he or she was doing. I should know what it feels like since I didn't quite recover from it untill 2 years later...
I don't care what the critics say about how Stephanie Meyer portrayed Bella as helpless and weak since she couldn't seem to live without Edward. But I think they should really ask themselves how they had felt when they had to suffer from what Bella is going though.
In my opinion this book really tells how going through a breakup is like, at least it is giving teens an idea what it would be like and prepare them to feel what it is like. Unlike me, I had to go through with the whole experience all alone, no one could help me at all. Bella is considered lucky that she has so many people there to help her through.
PS, I can't really write down the whole plot just in case someone comes across this and hadn't read the book. You know who I mean...
Monday, 1 December 2008
First Day of class
Today was the first day of the 3rd semester and already i was late for class...
At least I wasn't the latest, but still a little guilty that I was. Mr.Philip is a nice enough lecturer but I won't make any doubts about liking him or not, I don't want to contradict my words just like last sem where I did it almost all the time.
We didn't have tutorial for Social Psychology today. So while the group 2 students troup out I found myself sitting in Ruby's car heading to Pyramid. I wanted to go book hunting or else I don't think I would have been that tempted to go. What with my aching back and all...
Mr.Winston seems like a nice enough guy, he was in shock when he heard Piaget said something about his hobbies. You'll know if you were in our tutorial. I have to admit that I didn't manage to store anything in my mind about his lecture...
At least I wasn't the latest, but still a little guilty that I was. Mr.Philip is a nice enough lecturer but I won't make any doubts about liking him or not, I don't want to contradict my words just like last sem where I did it almost all the time.
We didn't have tutorial for Social Psychology today. So while the group 2 students troup out I found myself sitting in Ruby's car heading to Pyramid. I wanted to go book hunting or else I don't think I would have been that tempted to go. What with my aching back and all...
Mr.Winston seems like a nice enough guy, he was in shock when he heard Piaget said something about his hobbies. You'll know if you were in our tutorial. I have to admit that I didn't manage to store anything in my mind about his lecture...
Thursday, 27 November 2008
Semester 3 Tuesday Timetable
10am - 12pm English for College Studies 3 (T) B1-05-06
1pm - 3pm English for College Studies 3 (L) A2-10-03
1pm - 3pm English for College Studies 3 (L) A2-10-03
Semester 3 Thursday Timetable
8am - 10am English for College Studies 3 (T) B1-05-13
10am - 12pm English for College Studies 3 (L) A2-10-03
1pm - 3pm Social Psychology (T) B1-05-08
3pm -5pm Media Appreciation (T) B1-05-08
10am - 12pm English for College Studies 3 (L) A2-10-03
1pm - 3pm Social Psychology (T) B1-05-08
3pm -5pm Media Appreciation (T) B1-05-08
Semester 3 Friday Timetable
8am - 10am Media Appreciation (L)
10am -12pm Social Psychology (L)
A2-10-03
10am -12pm Social Psychology (L)
A2-10-03
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
Semester 3 Monday Timetable
8am -10am Social Psychology (L) A2-10-03
10am - 12pm Social Psychology (T) A2-10-02
1pm - 3pm Media Appreciation (T) A2-10-04
3pm - 5pm Media Appreciation (L) A2-10-03
10am - 12pm Social Psychology (T) A2-10-02
1pm - 3pm Media Appreciation (T) A2-10-04
3pm - 5pm Media Appreciation (L) A2-10-03
Friday, 21 November 2008
The Malaysian A1GP
I went out with mum on Wednesday to Central Station to buy the tickets for the A1 GP this weekend. I got a discount on my ticket by showing my student card. That's 50% not little.
I also found out the prices for the F1 GP, turns out students only need to pay RM100 to sit in the Grand stand rather then the normal rm300+ price normal people have to pay. I'm so excited!!
Tomorrow is Qualifying and the rm100 includes the qualifying ticket so I will be busy for the whole weekend. ta~
I also found out the prices for the F1 GP, turns out students only need to pay RM100 to sit in the Grand stand rather then the normal rm300+ price normal people have to pay. I'm so excited!!
Tomorrow is Qualifying and the rm100 includes the qualifying ticket so I will be busy for the whole weekend. ta~
Thursday, 20 November 2008
Jerri's book review
I've recently bought a new book called Twilight. Yes I know it is the latest movie that will be released on November 27, but I like to read the book before I watch the movie. I learned my lesson when I watched the Lord of the Rings movies and then bought the book, I couldn't find the motivation to finish the book because I keep expecting to read a scene in the movie.
Anyway back to the book, it is more of a romance book rather than an adventure book. It is told from the perspective of Isabella Swan, Bella for short. She moved to Forks, Washington just to let her mother, Renee, travel with her new husband who plays ball. Bella went to live with her father, Charlie in a place where she dislikes because there is too much rain to her liking.
There Bella meets new friends and became a porpular target of boys, but the only person that she is interested with is a boy named Edward Cullen, her biology partner. She observes Edward. She then came to a conclusion that Edward is not human.
I think that this book is really interesting. I so disagree with the reviews those people gave about the book. It at least has a different story line than other teen "Flicks" (that's what I call the books that are written for teenagers to read just like series and all those junk).
I think it is creative and interesting even though I don't really understand what the vampire is saying.
Anyway back to the book, it is more of a romance book rather than an adventure book. It is told from the perspective of Isabella Swan, Bella for short. She moved to Forks, Washington just to let her mother, Renee, travel with her new husband who plays ball. Bella went to live with her father, Charlie in a place where she dislikes because there is too much rain to her liking.
There Bella meets new friends and became a porpular target of boys, but the only person that she is interested with is a boy named Edward Cullen, her biology partner. She observes Edward. She then came to a conclusion that Edward is not human.
I think that this book is really interesting. I so disagree with the reviews those people gave about the book. It at least has a different story line than other teen "Flicks" (that's what I call the books that are written for teenagers to read just like series and all those junk).
I think it is creative and interesting even though I don't really understand what the vampire is saying.
Sunday, 16 November 2008
Another joke for me and you
Kimi Raikkonen did a mistake while chasing after Fernando Alonso for 4th place during the Hungarian Grand Prix because he sneezed while driving at 300kpm.
Joke of the day
A girl and a boy was sitting under a tree,
the boy said: "I like Michael Jackson"
the girl said: "Really? How racist are you?"
the boy said: "I like Michael Jackson"
the girl said: "Really? How racist are you?"
Thursday, 6 November 2008
Datukship
Ok, I recently remembered about the whole Datukship for the indian guy, what's his name again? Shah Rukh Khan right? I asked my mum if he really did get the datukship and the answer is he did. So I thought about the reason he was given the datukship : because he did a movie that promotes Malaysia. I don't think he deserves 1 still, I mean at least Jean Todt is married to a Malaysian and also have a house here!
If he were to have a Datukship for promoting a movie that I doubt he even remembers why is it that Nick Heidfeld and Robert Kubica doesn't get one too? They know they advertise for Petronas and Heidfeld even quoted this year:
“For years now the Malaysian Grand Prix has been rather a special race for me. Petronas, of course, was already a partner of Sauber when I was driving for them from 2001 to 2003, and we used to do promotional tours around the country. As a Formula One driver you usually don't get to see much beyond airports, hotels and race tracks as there simply isn't the time to get to know a country and its people. But in Malaysia I've already managed to get around quite a bit and I feel very much at home there. It always takes a while to get acclimatized to the combination of heat and high humidity, but that's never been a problem for me. The circuit is an attractive and challenging one. Last year I had a great race in Sepang and finished fourth. I managed to get past Felipe Massa and kept the Ferrari in check behind me.”
last year he quoted: "For me, one of the nice things about my job is the travel, and I've got to see quite a lot of Malaysia. Petronas was a Sauber partner in my earlier spell with the team as well, and came up with new ideas each year. For the Malaysian people, the state-owned company is like an icon. They greet us with such pride, because we are taking the company name around the world. It's really impressive."
as for Kubica he said this year: "The Malaysian Grand Prix is a very special race for us on account of our partner Petronas. We have a lot of fans rooting for us there.”
At least they know why the people in Malaysia honour them, even I am a big fan of BMW Sauber bacause of Petronas. The Malaysian GP is considered as one of the home GP of this team from Munich and Hinwil.
Speaking of which, I think that the YDP Agong should really give datukships to Eddie Irvine who is the Master of the Malaysian Grand Prix as he is the first driver to have won the Malaysian GP. Why not give Kimi Raikkonen a datukship too since his maiden victory is in Malaysia.
Oh and don't forget the Survivor Borneo bunch, that's the 1st ever Survivor show was first filmed in Borneo. They should give it to them and also to Richard Hatch for winning it in Malaysia!!
If he were to have a Datukship for promoting a movie that I doubt he even remembers why is it that Nick Heidfeld and Robert Kubica doesn't get one too? They know they advertise for Petronas and Heidfeld even quoted this year:
“For years now the Malaysian Grand Prix has been rather a special race for me. Petronas, of course, was already a partner of Sauber when I was driving for them from 2001 to 2003, and we used to do promotional tours around the country. As a Formula One driver you usually don't get to see much beyond airports, hotels and race tracks as there simply isn't the time to get to know a country and its people. But in Malaysia I've already managed to get around quite a bit and I feel very much at home there. It always takes a while to get acclimatized to the combination of heat and high humidity, but that's never been a problem for me. The circuit is an attractive and challenging one. Last year I had a great race in Sepang and finished fourth. I managed to get past Felipe Massa and kept the Ferrari in check behind me.”
last year he quoted: "For me, one of the nice things about my job is the travel, and I've got to see quite a lot of Malaysia. Petronas was a Sauber partner in my earlier spell with the team as well, and came up with new ideas each year. For the Malaysian people, the state-owned company is like an icon. They greet us with such pride, because we are taking the company name around the world. It's really impressive."
as for Kubica he said this year: "The Malaysian Grand Prix is a very special race for us on account of our partner Petronas. We have a lot of fans rooting for us there.”At least they know why the people in Malaysia honour them, even I am a big fan of BMW Sauber bacause of Petronas. The Malaysian GP is considered as one of the home GP of this team from Munich and Hinwil.
Speaking of which, I think that the YDP Agong should really give datukships to Eddie Irvine who is the Master of the Malaysian Grand Prix as he is the first driver to have won the Malaysian GP. Why not give Kimi Raikkonen a datukship too since his maiden victory is in Malaysia.
Oh and don't forget the Survivor Borneo bunch, that's the 1st ever Survivor show was first filmed in Borneo. They should give it to them and also to Richard Hatch for winning it in Malaysia!!
Wednesday, 5 November 2008
I hate my Voice
I've never really heard my own voice before and as I talk I always thought that I no longer sound like a baby anymore untill just recently I heard my voice when I was interviewing one of my fellow students.
Why hadn't anyone ever tell me before that my voice is like a baby? high pitch and shrill, no wonder one of my most disliked teachers complains that she can hear me talk all the time. She use to embarass me in front of my classmates about my voice. But I thought I grew out of that voice!! I really thought so!!
Now I know why my classmates hate me, I know that they have always say me as a faker but I didn't know the reason that made them think me a faker was because of my voice. It must sound like I'm trying to pretend to be a little girl and my age will surely make them think even more.
I hate my Extremely Annoying voice!! I hope everyone will forgive me for having this annoying little girl voice, I'm not pretending it is just my voice. And believe me when I say that I really didn't know that I have such an annoying voice because to me I sound like an adult, a normal teenager!!
Why hadn't anyone ever tell me before that my voice is like a baby? high pitch and shrill, no wonder one of my most disliked teachers complains that she can hear me talk all the time. She use to embarass me in front of my classmates about my voice. But I thought I grew out of that voice!! I really thought so!!
Now I know why my classmates hate me, I know that they have always say me as a faker but I didn't know the reason that made them think me a faker was because of my voice. It must sound like I'm trying to pretend to be a little girl and my age will surely make them think even more.
I hate my Extremely Annoying voice!! I hope everyone will forgive me for having this annoying little girl voice, I'm not pretending it is just my voice. And believe me when I say that I really didn't know that I have such an annoying voice because to me I sound like an adult, a normal teenager!!
Monday, 3 November 2008
Don't want!!
My mum just said that she would love to call me Nicole. But it is so mature, it sooo contradicts with my girl-next-door act. Plus it is a certain someone I hate girlfriend's name, so why would I want to change it to that?!?!
Nicole, shortformed to Nicky portrays a very serious person and (just lately) a pussycat doll sexy mama that is already 30 and dating a 23 year old. I ain't a sexy girl and I certainly will not date a person who is more then a month younger then me. So don't expect me to change to that.
Another reason I don't want to change to Nicky is because there's already a Nikki in class! There's going to be 2 person with the same name but different spelling!
What next? A twin brother named Ricky?? Ish...
Nicole, shortformed to Nicky portrays a very serious person and (just lately) a pussycat doll sexy mama that is already 30 and dating a 23 year old. I ain't a sexy girl and I certainly will not date a person who is more then a month younger then me. So don't expect me to change to that.
Another reason I don't want to change to Nicky is because there's already a Nikki in class! There's going to be 2 person with the same name but different spelling!
What next? A twin brother named Ricky?? Ish...
Saturday, 1 November 2008
1 week
After today then I haven't talked to my dad for 1 week. He ignores me, he doesn't even look at me and I'm just invisible to him. I know that he doesn't wants me anymore. Where can I go then? I still can't go to Australia, I don't have to money and what can I do if I went? I still need to finish my studies here.
Mum is just acting like this is normal. I guess I will have to keep this up until I leave this house. But why would I leave this house when this house is under my name?? Maybe for working reasons or studies. But that isn't until a few years from now, plus I'm not an independent person, how am I going to live without mum? This isolation shall continue to the day I leave.
Well today is the most boring weekend I've had since a few months ago before I started watching FIA WTCC. Tonight's race is the last Formula 1 race. Its going to be boring without the races. Even the FIA WTCC is ending! But I've still got A1 to watch. That can keep me company in this isolation till my birthday for sure.
Mum is just acting like this is normal. I guess I will have to keep this up until I leave this house. But why would I leave this house when this house is under my name?? Maybe for working reasons or studies. But that isn't until a few years from now, plus I'm not an independent person, how am I going to live without mum? This isolation shall continue to the day I leave.
Well today is the most boring weekend I've had since a few months ago before I started watching FIA WTCC. Tonight's race is the last Formula 1 race. Its going to be boring without the races. Even the FIA WTCC is ending! But I've still got A1 to watch. That can keep me company in this isolation till my birthday for sure.
Thursday, 30 October 2008
Threats from Mum
My Mum has recently threaten me that if I do not get my friends to pronounce my name properly then she will force me to change my name.
Jerrica, the name is not recorded in any dictionary unlike Michelle or whatever. Even now using the Firefox it is telling me that it is a wrong spelling.
People had started off calling me JAriKA back when I was young, and my mum had tirelessly corrected them over and over again until they finally pronounce it correctly. In Secondary school my friends don't call me by that name but everyone loves teasing me and calling me JAriCARRR. My Mum of course had glared at those teasers everytime they called me that. And then there are the people who just called me Jerika. Which sounded weird because of the missing R. In college my friends has been calling me JerriKA which is almost similar to back when I was 6 years old.
The right pronunciation of my name is JER-RI-CA. The ending is a "ke" not a "ka". So I really hope that I could get my friends to pronounce it correctly or else my Mum is going to force me to change my name.
Or should I just take a leaf out of Piaget's book to change my name every now and then??
Jerrica, the name is not recorded in any dictionary unlike Michelle or whatever. Even now using the Firefox it is telling me that it is a wrong spelling.
People had started off calling me JAriKA back when I was young, and my mum had tirelessly corrected them over and over again until they finally pronounce it correctly. In Secondary school my friends don't call me by that name but everyone loves teasing me and calling me JAriCARRR. My Mum of course had glared at those teasers everytime they called me that. And then there are the people who just called me Jerika. Which sounded weird because of the missing R. In college my friends has been calling me JerriKA which is almost similar to back when I was 6 years old.
The right pronunciation of my name is JER-RI-CA. The ending is a "ke" not a "ka". So I really hope that I could get my friends to pronounce it correctly or else my Mum is going to force me to change my name.
Or should I just take a leaf out of Piaget's book to change my name every now and then??
Day 4
I haven't talk to my father for 4 days. He didn't even respond when I gave him his lousy birthday present yesterday. That's rm30 I wasted then. He isn't going to like it. Obviously.
He started talking to my mum yesterday, but he isn't talking to me. So I'm going to guess he doesn't want me as his daughter anymore. I wonder where I can go if he really throws me out of the house.
Now I really wish I don't exist. I don't know what is my purpose in life before this, and now that my father doesn't wants me anymore then I think I should really leave. I envy my brother and sister, at least my father still wants them. How I wish I could drop dead just like that. I wonder would it hurt dieing? or would it be fast and clean?
He started talking to my mum yesterday, but he isn't talking to me. So I'm going to guess he doesn't want me as his daughter anymore. I wonder where I can go if he really throws me out of the house.
Now I really wish I don't exist. I don't know what is my purpose in life before this, and now that my father doesn't wants me anymore then I think I should really leave. I envy my brother and sister, at least my father still wants them. How I wish I could drop dead just like that. I wonder would it hurt dieing? or would it be fast and clean?
Monday, 27 October 2008
What Happen
Yesterday at about 7 something, the electricity went out, the whole Sri Petaling hasn't got any electricity for less then 1 hour.
My Dad came in, ate dinner and just went out to the living room. I eat dinner very slowly and I'm always the last to finish. Another silent dinner. He is totally ignore us and didn't even pay hid to any of us. When the electricity went out he just went outside, my mum asked if the rest of the houses had any electricity he just ignored us.
A few minutes later, he came in and took the keys and left without saying anything to us or where he was going. We went upstairs to hang around in the aircond room where there is at least a little cold air left. He came back then started yelling about the torchlight.
Just because my mum didn't charge the torchlight the last time we used it and he started scolding her. I felt so guilty for taking the last torchlight in the house and because he couldn't find that he yelled at my mum.
I know that it is my fault for offending him, but what about my mum? She didn't do anything to let him yell at her. The cold war now is just getting on my nerves. He isn't talking to me or my mum. What part do we play in him losing money? I don't get why it is us that has to suffer when he was the one to blame.
My sister is lucky she doesn't has to endure this cold war when she was young. But it is times like this that I really wish that I have a close sibling to talk to and to share this feeling with. I don't really care if that brother or sister is younger then me or not. Just as long there is someone then I'm happy.
But who will listen to me? Who can help me?
I hate my life now. I don't feel like living anymore. Being liveless is tempting now.
My Dad came in, ate dinner and just went out to the living room. I eat dinner very slowly and I'm always the last to finish. Another silent dinner. He is totally ignore us and didn't even pay hid to any of us. When the electricity went out he just went outside, my mum asked if the rest of the houses had any electricity he just ignored us.
A few minutes later, he came in and took the keys and left without saying anything to us or where he was going. We went upstairs to hang around in the aircond room where there is at least a little cold air left. He came back then started yelling about the torchlight.
Just because my mum didn't charge the torchlight the last time we used it and he started scolding her. I felt so guilty for taking the last torchlight in the house and because he couldn't find that he yelled at my mum.
I know that it is my fault for offending him, but what about my mum? She didn't do anything to let him yell at her. The cold war now is just getting on my nerves. He isn't talking to me or my mum. What part do we play in him losing money? I don't get why it is us that has to suffer when he was the one to blame.
My sister is lucky she doesn't has to endure this cold war when she was young. But it is times like this that I really wish that I have a close sibling to talk to and to share this feeling with. I don't really care if that brother or sister is younger then me or not. Just as long there is someone then I'm happy.
But who will listen to me? Who can help me?
I hate my life now. I don't feel like living anymore. Being liveless is tempting now.
Sunday, 26 October 2008
Family Problem again
My Dad came home yesterday, he didn't say much not even to ask if my dog has eaten or not. He just came in and went upstairs to take his bath. I was in the computer room that time. I even greeted him and didn't get a response.
Well, I went downstairs at first then went upstairs again to get my water bottle to fill. I haven't came down and he was already downstairs and shouting about who left the TV on and the first thing that he said was me leaving the TV on when I'm upstairs. I heard what he said and told him to not blame me and hence the arguments started.
He said he only "asked" me why I left the TV on, oh yeah right like I don't know the difference of being asked and being blamed. He also said when did I learned to behave like I was being fitnah about something, why can't I just talk properly and also that he just "asked" me and I was making so much noise. Excuse me, I only said "don't blame everything on me" that is make a lot of noise... The last time I check that was just one sentence and 5 words 7 syllables. He was the one making all the noise!
Then he turned on the fan which didn't respond because my mum turned off at the controls and not at the switch and he started to shout about why she turned it off there. Then when we finally sat down for dinner my mum pushed the soup bowl to the center of the table and he said "no, push it further away" What? now we are ganging up on him?
Just because he lost money in his horse racing doesn't mean he can take it out on us. We didn't tell him to gamble so big did we? We weren't the ones that wanted to be greedy did we? And I never said I wanted a new car, he was the one that wanted to buy a new car first!
Well, I went downstairs at first then went upstairs again to get my water bottle to fill. I haven't came down and he was already downstairs and shouting about who left the TV on and the first thing that he said was me leaving the TV on when I'm upstairs. I heard what he said and told him to not blame me and hence the arguments started.
He said he only "asked" me why I left the TV on, oh yeah right like I don't know the difference of being asked and being blamed. He also said when did I learned to behave like I was being fitnah about something, why can't I just talk properly and also that he just "asked" me and I was making so much noise. Excuse me, I only said "don't blame everything on me" that is make a lot of noise... The last time I check that was just one sentence and 5 words 7 syllables. He was the one making all the noise!
Then he turned on the fan which didn't respond because my mum turned off at the controls and not at the switch and he started to shout about why she turned it off there. Then when we finally sat down for dinner my mum pushed the soup bowl to the center of the table and he said "no, push it further away" What? now we are ganging up on him?
Just because he lost money in his horse racing doesn't mean he can take it out on us. We didn't tell him to gamble so big did we? We weren't the ones that wanted to be greedy did we? And I never said I wanted a new car, he was the one that wanted to buy a new car first!
Astro - hate and love at the same time
I am a Formula 1 fan, so I love to watch the races and where else can you watch the race other then on Astro?
I love Astro, I get to watch the sports live on Star Sports and also enjoy brilliant commentary by Steve Slater and the guest commentator. I also like watching the show before the race called Race Day where we get to learn more about the sport. Well, other then Formula 1 I also watch the FIA World Touring Car Championship, that race is only showed on Eurosport and not on normal TV. The A1 Grand Prix is also a no show on normal TV, I can only watch the race on ESPN.
I also love to watch Cartoons on Disney Channel, Nickelodeon and also Cartoon Network. Totally Spies is my favourite Cartoon, and I like the teen Flicks on Nickelodeon. I used to watch Teen Titans, Shou lin Showdown and quite a number of cartoons on Cartoon Network.
I hate Astro because whenever it rains I won't get to watch the shows. And how could I watch the race if it rains. And when the repeat airs it is on a time that is impossible to catch, I'm either in school or tuition, just like I missed the race in Brazil last year where Kimi Raikkonen won the World Championship. The most exciting race and I missed it. 1 year later and I'm still fuming over how I missed that race.
And in March, my Cartoon Network channel broke down, I complained to my parents and they called Astro. They want us to pay RM50 just for a simple inspection. That is too outrageous!! What if it wasn't my Satellite or decoder problem and just their cable wire's problem? That payment is just a waste isn't it?? I called all my friends and sister and they said that their Cartoon Network channel was still working perfectly, so why is it mine wouldn't work? And AStro just wants me to pay when we don't really know what the problem is?? That is just UNFAIR!!! UNFAIR I tell you, JUST UNFAIR!!!
But at the same time, how are we going to live without Astro? No Astro means no live coverage on Sports and also no live concerts to watch during Chinese New Year. So that's why I say, I hate and love Astro at the same time.
I love Astro, I get to watch the sports live on Star Sports and also enjoy brilliant commentary by Steve Slater and the guest commentator. I also like watching the show before the race called Race Day where we get to learn more about the sport. Well, other then Formula 1 I also watch the FIA World Touring Car Championship, that race is only showed on Eurosport and not on normal TV. The A1 Grand Prix is also a no show on normal TV, I can only watch the race on ESPN.
I also love to watch Cartoons on Disney Channel, Nickelodeon and also Cartoon Network. Totally Spies is my favourite Cartoon, and I like the teen Flicks on Nickelodeon. I used to watch Teen Titans, Shou lin Showdown and quite a number of cartoons on Cartoon Network.
I hate Astro because whenever it rains I won't get to watch the shows. And how could I watch the race if it rains. And when the repeat airs it is on a time that is impossible to catch, I'm either in school or tuition, just like I missed the race in Brazil last year where Kimi Raikkonen won the World Championship. The most exciting race and I missed it. 1 year later and I'm still fuming over how I missed that race.
And in March, my Cartoon Network channel broke down, I complained to my parents and they called Astro. They want us to pay RM50 just for a simple inspection. That is too outrageous!! What if it wasn't my Satellite or decoder problem and just their cable wire's problem? That payment is just a waste isn't it?? I called all my friends and sister and they said that their Cartoon Network channel was still working perfectly, so why is it mine wouldn't work? And AStro just wants me to pay when we don't really know what the problem is?? That is just UNFAIR!!! UNFAIR I tell you, JUST UNFAIR!!!
But at the same time, how are we going to live without Astro? No Astro means no live coverage on Sports and also no live concerts to watch during Chinese New Year. So that's why I say, I hate and love Astro at the same time.
Monday, 20 October 2008
Joke of the day
A pair of students were sitting in class comparing exam results. They have agreed that whoever has the most highest marks would win the bet of $5. Student A currently has more high marks then Student B.
Student A triumphantly cheered: "You're going down!!!" to Student B.
Student B sat back in his chair and said: "I don't need to go down because my results are already down..."
Student A triumphantly cheered: "You're going down!!!" to Student B.
Student B sat back in his chair and said: "I don't need to go down because my results are already down..."
Wednesday, 15 October 2008
Music
The Rules
Put your itunes. Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
For each Question, press the next button to get your answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
Put this on your blog.
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
(What is that suppose to mean?)
2. How would you describe yourself?
Rockstar - Hannah Montana
(YEAH! This is more like it!!)
3. What do you like in a boy/girl?
Better in Time - Leona Lewis
(like they would change for the better in time?)
4. How do you feel today?
Take a Bow - Rhiana
(Yeah, I do feel like a drama queen right now
5. What is your life's purpose?
抢玫瑰 (Fighting for a Rose) - Rynn Lin and JJ Lin
(You have got to be joking...)
6. What is your motto?
We've got the Party Started - Hannah Montana
(Yap yap, I love that Motto!)
7. What do your friends think of you?
Always Online - JJ Lin
(I guess that is right since I am always online)
8. What do you think of your parents?
刊物女 (Girl that stays at home) - Rynn Lin
(... more like what they think of me...)
9. What do you think about very often?
Move Shake Drop - DJ Laz ft Flo
(Coincident much??)
10. What is 2 + 2?
Leave it All to Me - Miranda Cosgrove
(that is sooo not what I will say when it comes to maths...)
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Time of My Life - David Cook
(Well, talking to them is different from talking to anybody else...)
12. What do you think about the person you like?
青花瓷 (Green Porcelain Vase) - Jay Chow
(?? a vase? That's weird...)
13. What is your life?
Follow Me Now - Alvin and the Chipmunks
(hmm... I have always wanted to be a trendsetter...)
14. What do you want to be when you grown up?
Way Back Into Love - Victor Wong and Fish Leong
(True that I have lost faith in love...)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
(but- but- I'm scare of needles!!!)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
情爱得，那不是爱 (That's not love, my dear) - Angela Zhang
(I don't think that is an appropriate song to play on my wedding day...)
17. What would they play at your funeral?
小太阳 (Little Sun) - Mayday
(I would like that, I did nickname myself Sunshine...)
18. What is your hobby/interest?
This is Real, This is Me - Demi Lovato ft Joe Jonas
(Well, I haven't exactly found myself yet... in other words I'm PEraSan)
19. What is your biggest fear?
Big Yellow Taxi - Counting Crows ft Vanessa Carlton
(So that's why I just refuse to take the taxi!!!)
20. What is your biggest secret?
Gemuruh - Faizal Tahir
(My biggest secret is thunder??)
21. What will you post this as?
Here in My Home - Malaysian Artists of Unity
(... no comment...)
22. What song will you play during your first time having sex?
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
(so sad a???)
Put your itunes. Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
For each Question, press the next button to get your answer.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
Put this on your blog.
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
(What is that suppose to mean?)
2. How would you describe yourself?
Rockstar - Hannah Montana
(YEAH! This is more like it!!)
3. What do you like in a boy/girl?
Better in Time - Leona Lewis
(like they would change for the better in time?)
4. How do you feel today?
Take a Bow - Rhiana
(Yeah, I do feel like a drama queen right now
5. What is your life's purpose?
抢玫瑰 (Fighting for a Rose) - Rynn Lin and JJ Lin
(You have got to be joking...)
6. What is your motto?
We've got the Party Started - Hannah Montana
(Yap yap, I love that Motto!)
7. What do your friends think of you?
Always Online - JJ Lin
(I guess that is right since I am always online)
8. What do you think of your parents?
刊物女 (Girl that stays at home) - Rynn Lin
(... more like what they think of me...)
9. What do you think about very often?
Move Shake Drop - DJ Laz ft Flo
(Coincident much??)
10. What is 2 + 2?
Leave it All to Me - Miranda Cosgrove
(that is sooo not what I will say when it comes to maths...)
11. What do you think of your best friend?
Time of My Life - David Cook
(Well, talking to them is different from talking to anybody else...)
12. What do you think about the person you like?
青花瓷 (Green Porcelain Vase) - Jay Chow
(?? a vase? That's weird...)
13. What is your life?
Follow Me Now - Alvin and the Chipmunks
(hmm... I have always wanted to be a trendsetter...)
14. What do you want to be when you grown up?
Way Back Into Love - Victor Wong and Fish Leong
(True that I have lost faith in love...)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
(but- but- I'm scare of needles!!!)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
情爱得，那不是爱 (That's not love, my dear) - Angela Zhang
(I don't think that is an appropriate song to play on my wedding day...)
17. What would they play at your funeral?
小太阳 (Little Sun) - Mayday
(I would like that, I did nickname myself Sunshine...)
18. What is your hobby/interest?
This is Real, This is Me - Demi Lovato ft Joe Jonas
(Well, I haven't exactly found myself yet... in other words I'm PEraSan)
19. What is your biggest fear?
Big Yellow Taxi - Counting Crows ft Vanessa Carlton
(So that's why I just refuse to take the taxi!!!)
20. What is your biggest secret?
Gemuruh - Faizal Tahir
(My biggest secret is thunder??)
21. What will you post this as?
Here in My Home - Malaysian Artists of Unity
(... no comment...)
22. What song will you play during your first time having sex?
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
(so sad a???)
Thursday, 2 October 2008
Let us Welcome!
Before I start this blog entry, I would like to have a one minute silence to honour the death of Paul Newman. A racer and a good actor, who died of cancer on Saturday night.
Last week's Singapore GP ended with the most unexpected winner, Fernando Alonso? how did the guy win the race? Well ok, so I was watching the race but it was still unexpected! Rosberg, the guy that was quoted on a Facebook page to be "dissapointing" ended up in 2nd place, and he is just lucky that his old friend, the Arrogant Hamilton, did not overtake him after the 2nd restart of the race. I think he should thank Kimi Raikkonen for crashing out and being unable to overtake Timo Glock to put pressure on Mr.Arrogant.
Poor Raikkonen, that is the 4th time he did not score any points at all. What's with him and unreliable cars? He left Mclaren because of unreliable cars, and you've got to admit that his car is always breaking down, to go to Ferrari to face the same problem. That is what cost Michael Schumacher his last Championship in 2006 because of the engine failure in Suzuka.
Well, I'm glad he has finally given up on his World Championship dreams and focus on helping the team and Massa. So now I can watch him race without shaking my head from time to time.
Anyway, I want to welcome a new electronic member of the family. I have decided to name my new notebook "Black Pearl" since it is balck and my favourite ship in Pirates of the Caribean is the Black Pearl. An Asus F80L. bought it without the OS so that I can install an XP inside it. DO you know that the Vista is just a waste of Processor space? Well at least that what I will call it from now on.
Last week's Singapore GP ended with the most unexpected winner, Fernando Alonso? how did the guy win the race? Well ok, so I was watching the race but it was still unexpected! Rosberg, the guy that was quoted on a Facebook page to be "dissapointing" ended up in 2nd place, and he is just lucky that his old friend, the Arrogant Hamilton, did not overtake him after the 2nd restart of the race. I think he should thank Kimi Raikkonen for crashing out and being unable to overtake Timo Glock to put pressure on Mr.Arrogant.
Poor Raikkonen, that is the 4th time he did not score any points at all. What's with him and unreliable cars? He left Mclaren because of unreliable cars, and you've got to admit that his car is always breaking down, to go to Ferrari to face the same problem. That is what cost Michael Schumacher his last Championship in 2006 because of the engine failure in Suzuka.
Well, I'm glad he has finally given up on his World Championship dreams and focus on helping the team and Massa. So now I can watch him race without shaking my head from time to time.
Anyway, I want to welcome a new electronic member of the family. I have decided to name my new notebook "Black Pearl" since it is balck and my favourite ship in Pirates of the Caribean is the Black Pearl. An Asus F80L. bought it without the OS so that I can install an XP inside it. DO you know that the Vista is just a waste of Processor space? Well at least that what I will call it from now on.
Saturday, 13 September 2008
Is Lewis criticizing Kimi??
Well well, I just read the news articles and I think I hear Lewis criticizing the Wealthy-and-Mad world champion Kimi. Lewis says he is cool, but the way he talks is dripping with arrogance. Now that is something you don't see from a Formula 1 driver everyday. Keep up the criticism Lewis, you're doing a great job. Too bad none of us really cares about the things he says. So what if he got alot of encouragement from even fans from other teams? An advantage is an advantage so he has to deal with it, the arrogant git....
Today's weather is sooooo hot!! I've already drank 4 cups of water and am still thirsty. When we want it to rain it never comes, but when we don't want it to rain it just wouldn't stop. Reminds me of the drama we learned for sastera during form 4. The weathers were debating which other of who was the best... Are they doing that in the heavens??
So tomorrow is Mid-Autumn festival. Again F1 is getting in the way of things. Luckily there isn't any of my favourite singers attending the concert on CCTV. It was beautiful last year, not to mention interesting too. Where else can you see 2 of your most favourite singers in one concert?
The internet is so slow today, I wish I could just watch the Youtube vids without waiting for it to load. I've already watched Hot shot and I'm now waiting to watch Woody and Sanbo. The next I would love to watch the series staring Wilbert, don't really know the name of the series yet.
So who is going to win the race this weekend? I would hope it is Kimi, but then again I think Massa should win too, and wipe that smirk off of the arrogant git's face. "they will find it hard to keep up" show him what you're made of horses!!
Today's weather is sooooo hot!! I've already drank 4 cups of water and am still thirsty. When we want it to rain it never comes, but when we don't want it to rain it just wouldn't stop. Reminds me of the drama we learned for sastera during form 4. The weathers were debating which other of who was the best... Are they doing that in the heavens??
So tomorrow is Mid-Autumn festival. Again F1 is getting in the way of things. Luckily there isn't any of my favourite singers attending the concert on CCTV. It was beautiful last year, not to mention interesting too. Where else can you see 2 of your most favourite singers in one concert?
The internet is so slow today, I wish I could just watch the Youtube vids without waiting for it to load. I've already watched Hot shot and I'm now waiting to watch Woody and Sanbo. The next I would love to watch the series staring Wilbert, don't really know the name of the series yet.
So who is going to win the race this weekend? I would hope it is Kimi, but then again I think Massa should win too, and wipe that smirk off of the arrogant git's face. "they will find it hard to keep up" show him what you're made of horses!!
Thursday, 11 September 2008
One more day
One more day...
One more day...
That is what I have been telling myself the whole week. I am seriously stupid to be neglecting my studies right now to read news of Formula 1. I think I'm going mad about Formula 1. Don't tell Mum though, she would sooo yell at me if she knew. That 3 words have been my motivation for the past few days.
I'm not exactly doing really well in my midterms this semester. I didn't study because of my hatred to certain subjects and laziness for chosing to watch tv rather then study. So that's it then, the reason why I did badly in my midterms. Another reason is that I did study, for my moral. But when I went for the exam yesterday I couldn't remember anything at all. The part where I love most was about the religions of Malaysia but there were only a few questions on it and mostly on questions from Chapter 2. Darn it... The short answer question was a dread also. I don't know how to explain the moral virtues of Altruism, Responsibily, Humble, Justice and Fairness!! I don't even know what does Altruism means!!
Today was english. There isn't much to study on English and the only thing to do is that to hope and pray that you have enough general knowledge on the essay question. I think that the feng shui in that class in not for me. When I did my comprehension I just couldn't get the words the stick in my brain long enough to process them. So I thought I would skip that part and do others first and then come back to read and do it again. Who knew that I actually didn't have enough time to do so. I ended up rushing the end of my essay (and I hope that the last paragraph has a hundred words in them) and then went back to my comprehension with just 5 minutes to spare. So with just 5 mins I resolve to using the most basic technique of answering question. Yap that's right: tembak la~
I would be so glad when this week in over, add another week to suffer from anger at myself and dissapointment, and then get on with life. That simple.
*sign* I would really have to work very very very hard on my Finals to past my subjects. As my friend, Ruby says: " We can't afford to fail..."
Now that's not what you hear everyday.
One more day...
That is what I have been telling myself the whole week. I am seriously stupid to be neglecting my studies right now to read news of Formula 1. I think I'm going mad about Formula 1. Don't tell Mum though, she would sooo yell at me if she knew. That 3 words have been my motivation for the past few days.
I'm not exactly doing really well in my midterms this semester. I didn't study because of my hatred to certain subjects and laziness for chosing to watch tv rather then study. So that's it then, the reason why I did badly in my midterms. Another reason is that I did study, for my moral. But when I went for the exam yesterday I couldn't remember anything at all. The part where I love most was about the religions of Malaysia but there were only a few questions on it and mostly on questions from Chapter 2. Darn it... The short answer question was a dread also. I don't know how to explain the moral virtues of Altruism, Responsibily, Humble, Justice and Fairness!! I don't even know what does Altruism means!!
Today was english. There isn't much to study on English and the only thing to do is that to hope and pray that you have enough general knowledge on the essay question. I think that the feng shui in that class in not for me. When I did my comprehension I just couldn't get the words the stick in my brain long enough to process them. So I thought I would skip that part and do others first and then come back to read and do it again. Who knew that I actually didn't have enough time to do so. I ended up rushing the end of my essay (and I hope that the last paragraph has a hundred words in them) and then went back to my comprehension with just 5 minutes to spare. So with just 5 mins I resolve to using the most basic technique of answering question. Yap that's right: tembak la~
I would be so glad when this week in over, add another week to suffer from anger at myself and dissapointment, and then get on with life. That simple.
*sign* I would really have to work very very very hard on my Finals to past my subjects. As my friend, Ruby says: " We can't afford to fail..."
Now that's not what you hear everyday.
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
Stupid Me
Man~ my emotions are in turmoil dudes!! I'm suppose to be studying for my midterms but then it's my favourite race track of the season. So as usual I'm stressed out because of my laziness.
Anyway it isn't only because of racing that I didn't study, it's because I have been so caught up with my MMH assignment that I have totally neglected my IT assignment. So I have to spend the whole weekend finishing my assignment instead of studying media history. Well I needed to get someone else's answer to study because, not only did I not pass up my tutorial assignment, I also did not finish it. So if I pass my midterms it would be all thanks to Ruby's answer.
Not only that, my favourite driver have just missed out on his first ever win after 4 months. sign* Kimi Raikkonen, it's hard to be a fan of someone that just hasn't got the luck to win. As usual Hamilton is the winner and in my opinion this is his second lowest move to win the race. The lowest thing he has ever done to win a race was when he pushed both Massa and Piquet off the road to get his place. Well the guy has got to stop complaining and be grateful that he has thirf place finish, if it were up to the audience he should have been disqualified instead of a 25 second penalty. Low Life... that's my new nick name for him.
Anyway it isn't only because of racing that I didn't study, it's because I have been so caught up with my MMH assignment that I have totally neglected my IT assignment. So I have to spend the whole weekend finishing my assignment instead of studying media history. Well I needed to get someone else's answer to study because, not only did I not pass up my tutorial assignment, I also did not finish it. So if I pass my midterms it would be all thanks to Ruby's answer.
Not only that, my favourite driver have just missed out on his first ever win after 4 months. sign* Kimi Raikkonen, it's hard to be a fan of someone that just hasn't got the luck to win. As usual Hamilton is the winner and in my opinion this is his second lowest move to win the race. The lowest thing he has ever done to win a race was when he pushed both Massa and Piquet off the road to get his place. Well the guy has got to stop complaining and be grateful that he has thirf place finish, if it were up to the audience he should have been disqualified instead of a 25 second penalty. Low Life... that's my new nick name for him.
Thursday, 14 August 2008
Shallow??
Call me shallow but I think I have a new target. I met him a long time ago, I think it was just the beginning of sem 1. During orientation night. He was a friend of my friend's. He was not that attractive that time, with that crew cut and the singlet. But I did notice his muscles.
I haven't seen him for a long time, but on Monday while I was sitting in the courtyard waiting for the next class and he came by and I 've got to say he looks good. I couldn't recognise him at all. He wave at me but I just stare wide eyed at him thinking if he was waving to someone behind me. Then I finally remember him and smile at him. And I talk to him, deliberately clapping myself on my back for complimenting how good he looks with longer hair. He asked about mine too, and I was surprise he remembered. I was amazed at my bravery at telling him my intentions to let it grow long. I wanted to mention on that day's blog entry but I didn't, or more accurately, deliberately missed out on it since mum was beside me.
I could not stop thinking of him. I saw him today again but was too in a rush to say much, but this time it wasn't because of my usual "reaching at the nick of time" timing. I was early - for once- and I was outside of class because I needed to get a book. And I met him on the way back. I think he has a girlfriend, which is a factor that will stop me. I can't help thinking that this time it is better then my old crushes because I am actually on talking terms with the guy.
Except for the fact that I found myself alone in the library again. But I met my friend Max again, I saw him at the Media hub at first then again at the library. I swear, the way we are behaving people would think we are having a relationship... Well we're not, we're just friends. Friends that live near each other so I can ask him for a ride home.
I haven't seen him for a long time, but on Monday while I was sitting in the courtyard waiting for the next class and he came by and I 've got to say he looks good. I couldn't recognise him at all. He wave at me but I just stare wide eyed at him thinking if he was waving to someone behind me. Then I finally remember him and smile at him. And I talk to him, deliberately clapping myself on my back for complimenting how good he looks with longer hair. He asked about mine too, and I was surprise he remembered. I was amazed at my bravery at telling him my intentions to let it grow long. I wanted to mention on that day's blog entry but I didn't, or more accurately, deliberately missed out on it since mum was beside me.
I could not stop thinking of him. I saw him today again but was too in a rush to say much, but this time it wasn't because of my usual "reaching at the nick of time" timing. I was early - for once- and I was outside of class because I needed to get a book. And I met him on the way back. I think he has a girlfriend, which is a factor that will stop me. I can't help thinking that this time it is better then my old crushes because I am actually on talking terms with the guy.
Except for the fact that I found myself alone in the library again. But I met my friend Max again, I saw him at the Media hub at first then again at the library. I swear, the way we are behaving people would think we are having a relationship... Well we're not, we're just friends. Friends that live near each other so I can ask him for a ride home.
Monday, 11 August 2008
Not so boring
Today wasn't as boring as last week, I have spent my time writing furiosly on my blog while the others were somewhere else. I found out, and to my horror, I have to do a presentation tomorrow morning. I'm not prepared!! I thought it was just a stand at your place and show what you have found thing!! But it isn't!! Oh no!! that means I can't be able to watch the Olympics on TV later!! sign*
Well at least there is a little more entertainment today. I spend my morning createing a very boring brochure while the others went all out to do theirs. I was so ashamed of mine that I wanted to delete and not past it up. But all in all, it was interesting. I actually learn how to use photoshop and I can finally do more then just typing on the microsoft word.
I ate lunch, RM4.50 a small plate of noodles. My mind kind of stalled when the girl served me the noodles. It's a small plate!! Not big! The last time was RM4.00 and I heard on the news that noodles have reduced price and yet!!
Well at least there is a little more entertainment today. I spend my morning createing a very boring brochure while the others went all out to do theirs. I was so ashamed of mine that I wanted to delete and not past it up. But all in all, it was interesting. I actually learn how to use photoshop and I can finally do more then just typing on the microsoft word.
I ate lunch, RM4.50 a small plate of noodles. My mind kind of stalled when the girl served me the noodles. It's a small plate!! Not big! The last time was RM4.00 and I heard on the news that noodles have reduced price and yet!!
Wednesday, 6 August 2008
I'm Lost
What was I thinking?? Why did I give up a perfect opportunity to be able to visit the main campus?? I have other excuses to tell if someone asked so why didn't I go?? I just gave on the 1 opportuinity to be able to visit the guy that I have had a crush on since Form 3 and hadn't seen him since our graduation. I didn't see him during results day too.
Well, I have other excuses to want to visit the main campus:
1. is that I haven't seen my girlfriends for a long long long long time. We could have seen each other if her paranoid boyfriend hadn't had a last minute change of mind.
2. I haven't ever been to the main campus in my life!!
I just can't believe I actually passed on this!! Doubtless there would be much hugging and air-kissing. I really miss them!!
Well, I have other excuses to want to visit the main campus:
1. is that I haven't seen my girlfriends for a long long long long time. We could have seen each other if her paranoid boyfriend hadn't had a last minute change of mind.
2. I haven't ever been to the main campus in my life!!
I just can't believe I actually passed on this!! Doubtless there would be much hugging and air-kissing. I really miss them!!
Monday, 4 August 2008
early in the morning
sign* I have class at 8am this morning, then I would end at 12pm. Which means I will be able to enjoy the rest of the day at home in peace and quiet. Today is a bad day and tomorrow is too, the signs that show that today is a black day on the Chinese calender was my dad.
Not even 8am and he is already shouting his head off about everything, plus all the swear words you can imagine how horrible it sounds if you're not a morning person. Luckily I"m may not be a morning person but I do love spending some extra time in mornings. So I didn't complain but only sulk throughout the whole car ride to school. Mum actually asked if I woke up on the wrong side of the bed because of my sulkings, well who wouldn't sulk when the first thing they encountered in the day was a shouting father with all the swear words coming out??
School wasn't much fun either. My friends are all distant, not one I could hang around permenently and call a close friend. I wish I can find someone to call a close friend in college. I wouldn't mind if the person is a different race or religion just as long as I have someone to talk to and to teman me most of the time.
I also discovered that My not more the 1 month old cell phone has a glitch. Well it has been showing signs of problems not more then 2 weeks old, it is restarting itself just like my old nokia 6600 when it's hardware was spoiling. And then a few weeks later the screen was muddled and the whole thing needs to be restarted because I couldn't see what was going on. Now the shortcut button is out. Is there no end to my cell phone problems??
I came to the media hub to find my usual favourite place occupied by the annoying and noisy girl that so annoyed me yesterday, I have to take refuge upstairs in the stinky light bulb.
Not even 8am and he is already shouting his head off about everything, plus all the swear words you can imagine how horrible it sounds if you're not a morning person. Luckily I"m may not be a morning person but I do love spending some extra time in mornings. So I didn't complain but only sulk throughout the whole car ride to school. Mum actually asked if I woke up on the wrong side of the bed because of my sulkings, well who wouldn't sulk when the first thing they encountered in the day was a shouting father with all the swear words coming out??
School wasn't much fun either. My friends are all distant, not one I could hang around permenently and call a close friend. I wish I can find someone to call a close friend in college. I wouldn't mind if the person is a different race or religion just as long as I have someone to talk to and to teman me most of the time.
I also discovered that My not more the 1 month old cell phone has a glitch. Well it has been showing signs of problems not more then 2 weeks old, it is restarting itself just like my old nokia 6600 when it's hardware was spoiling. And then a few weeks later the screen was muddled and the whole thing needs to be restarted because I couldn't see what was going on. Now the shortcut button is out. Is there no end to my cell phone problems??
I came to the media hub to find my usual favourite place occupied by the annoying and noisy girl that so annoyed me yesterday, I have to take refuge upstairs in the stinky light bulb.
Sunday, 3 August 2008
Back to Schoool
The new Semester has started. I'm not thrilled but I have a few subjects set on the timetable to look forward to. Intro to IT and Media History sounds interesting, even better is when that we can use the Apple Macs in the I-Lab. Brilliant!!
I think I shlould really start driving for myself. Atleast find something to do during the breaks while waiting for a different class to start. The timing is just ridiculous!! Tuesdays I have to wait for 3 hours and on Wednesdays I have to wait 4 hours untill the next class. At least Fridays I get to go home early, I'm not at all complaining about having to wake up at 6am in the morning to go to class. I hope they wouldn't change the timetable anymore, I like Firdays, no longer having to end at 5pm like during the 1st semester.
I think I would go for some car pool activities. I can save on petrol and I can have a little company while walking into school. the problem is to find a person to carpool with. Any suggestions??
I also should really start to add more things to my blogs and link more with others. Oh and Mel, happy to be able to join!! But I need someone to teach me add the stuff. Anyone knows how to add photos into the blog please leave a comment. Oh and if you know how to add music leave one too.
I shouldn't be complaining but I really need to start finding someone that I can stick to. I've been hanging around with several different people and the result now is sitting in the Media Hub typing the moody message alone. That isn't what I want. I need a good friend in college just like in High school. actually I have several good friends and gangs to hang with. But why am I finding it so hard to find a close and good friend in college??
Well I've got to pen off here. I have to get to my next class. My first ever Media History class. I wonder if it would be boring since I perceive the Teacher as a no-fun type. I think I will grow to like Intro to IT though, the lecturer is friendly and young too. I thought he was a student who had entered to wrong class when I first saw him. *laugh*
Results of the Hungarian Grand Prix
1. Heikki Kovalainen
2. Timo Glock
3. Kimi Raikkonen
Felipe Massa had an engin failure while leading the race
Lewis Hamilton suffered from a tyre puncture.
I think I shlould really start driving for myself. Atleast find something to do during the breaks while waiting for a different class to start. The timing is just ridiculous!! Tuesdays I have to wait for 3 hours and on Wednesdays I have to wait 4 hours untill the next class. At least Fridays I get to go home early, I'm not at all complaining about having to wake up at 6am in the morning to go to class. I hope they wouldn't change the timetable anymore, I like Firdays, no longer having to end at 5pm like during the 1st semester.
I think I would go for some car pool activities. I can save on petrol and I can have a little company while walking into school. the problem is to find a person to carpool with. Any suggestions??
I also should really start to add more things to my blogs and link more with others. Oh and Mel, happy to be able to join!! But I need someone to teach me add the stuff. Anyone knows how to add photos into the blog please leave a comment. Oh and if you know how to add music leave one too.
I shouldn't be complaining but I really need to start finding someone that I can stick to. I've been hanging around with several different people and the result now is sitting in the Media Hub typing the moody message alone. That isn't what I want. I need a good friend in college just like in High school. actually I have several good friends and gangs to hang with. But why am I finding it so hard to find a close and good friend in college??
Well I've got to pen off here. I have to get to my next class. My first ever Media History class. I wonder if it would be boring since I perceive the Teacher as a no-fun type. I think I will grow to like Intro to IT though, the lecturer is friendly and young too. I thought he was a student who had entered to wrong class when I first saw him. *laugh*
Results of the Hungarian Grand Prix
1. Heikki Kovalainen
2. Timo Glock
3. Kimi Raikkonen
Felipe Massa had an engin failure while leading the race
Lewis Hamilton suffered from a tyre puncture.
Tuesday, 8 July 2008
End of 1st Sem
Yes!!! end of semester!!! next will be the 2nd semester with 5 subjects and 5 exams to look forward to. oh dear... extra exam, 4 is stress enough already now 5?? The real subject that we can really look forward to is IT, we get to use the Apple Macs in the Media Hub!! That is cool!!!
Exam is well- I don't really know what it is. I think I got it right, but everyone knows that things have a way in turning out the way they never expect it to be. I know that I have passed my Malaysian Studies exam. but I don't know I really did for my other exams. English was a drag, spend 2 whole hours to do it, Was almost late for that paper. Intro to Mass com was ok, since I studied that the most. Unlike Malaysian studies and Intro to Human Comm, I only studied the essays. That explaines why I can write so long on the IHC Essay. 2 pages?? that is more then enough!!
Exam is well- I don't really know what it is. I think I got it right, but everyone knows that things have a way in turning out the way they never expect it to be. I know that I have passed my Malaysian Studies exam. but I don't know I really did for my other exams. English was a drag, spend 2 whole hours to do it, Was almost late for that paper. Intro to Mass com was ok, since I studied that the most. Unlike Malaysian studies and Intro to Human Comm, I only studied the essays. That explaines why I can write so long on the IHC Essay. 2 pages?? that is more then enough!!
Thursday, 24 April 2008
after one month
well after a whole month of school I find that our school life wasn't as hard as I imagined. communication class is much more theoretical when you compare with other courses. Well there isn't much practical stuff to learn for a class in Mass Comm. Even though it is our first month, our class has been receiving complains that we are too noisy, well what do you expect?? We are a Communications class. Every teacher has been giving us severe warnings that they are going to detain us from taking the fuondations exam. But our class still manage to make a lot of noise.
I know this is our first Month but I just can't help complaining about other students. Just like today, they made such a hoo-ha about one lousy t-shirt design. After the commitee had\s come to a decision I just can't help listening to the sorority girls saying that the shirt is extremely ugly, "I don't want to buy it or wear it" well fine~ don't wear it, go naked for all I care, that would be an interesting free show on event day.
I know this is our first Month but I just can't help complaining about other students. Just like today, they made such a hoo-ha about one lousy t-shirt design. After the commitee had\s come to a decision I just can't help listening to the sorority girls saying that the shirt is extremely ugly, "I don't want to buy it or wear it" well fine~ don't wear it, go naked for all I care, that would be an interesting free show on event day.
Sunday, 13 January 2008
A New Beginning Chapter 1
Jay is walking down an alley way. Dark and damp, rubbish on all sides. His detector was beeping louder and louder. A man and a woman's voice is heard, talking to each other lovingly at the end of the alley. Jay slowed to a stop then scan the man with the detector on his right wrist.
" Target confirmed. Name:Jeremy Lee the 1st. Ancestor of Jeremy the 3rd.
Success: Discovered a new mineral at the bottom of the ocean floor.
Harm: Earthquake
Age: 36 - has not discovered mineral."
"What? Who said that?" said the man squinting in the dark and finally noticing a dark figure standing in front of him and demanded: "who are you?"
No answer. the man stood up and glared at the figure. He demanded again: "I said, who are you?"
No answer again. Frustrated, the man started walking towards Jay. The man discovered it was just a boy in his early twenties.
"Go on get out of here, you have no business here.? still walking towards Jay. the man was now feet away from Jay. Without warning Jay produced a sword and drive it through the man. the man screamed. A bright light appeared from where the sword went in through his body and he began to deteriorate.
The sword was now poise in mid air. The girl staring wide eyed at him. fear in her eyes. Jay went towards her and placed a hand over her eyes. The girl disappeared, gone back to where she belong not a trace of memory of what just happened. Jay was now alone in the alley. He stood up and stare around the alley. Then a loud and cold voice echoed down.
"Well done. You may return now."
Jay nodded and walk forward into nothingness.
" Target confirmed. Name:Jeremy Lee the 1st. Ancestor of Jeremy the 3rd.
Success: Discovered a new mineral at the bottom of the ocean floor.
Harm: Earthquake
Age: 36 - has not discovered mineral."
"What? Who said that?" said the man squinting in the dark and finally noticing a dark figure standing in front of him and demanded: "who are you?"
No answer. the man stood up and glared at the figure. He demanded again: "I said, who are you?"
No answer again. Frustrated, the man started walking towards Jay. The man discovered it was just a boy in his early twenties.
"Go on get out of here, you have no business here.? still walking towards Jay. the man was now feet away from Jay. Without warning Jay produced a sword and drive it through the man. the man screamed. A bright light appeared from where the sword went in through his body and he began to deteriorate.
The sword was now poise in mid air. The girl staring wide eyed at him. fear in her eyes. Jay went towards her and placed a hand over her eyes. The girl disappeared, gone back to where she belong not a trace of memory of what just happened. Jay was now alone in the alley. He stood up and stare around the alley. Then a loud and cold voice echoed down.
"Well done. You may return now."
Jay nodded and walk forward into nothingness.
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